I’ve always been on a quest—seeking knowledge, growth, connection, and peace. This journey began to take shape during my high school years when I enrolled in my first psychology class. It was a turning point; I found myself truly listening, eager to understand not only my own experiences but also the intricacies of the world and humanity itself. Nowadays, people might label this pursuit as personal development or self-help, often reserved for the years after young adulthood. I owe a nod of gratitude to Ms. Thompson for giving me that initial spark at just 16.
You’ll often find me engrossed in the heartfelt memoirs and insightful tales of women like Mia, Tessa, Jenna, and Oprah. Though I’ve only met Jenna in person, their profound impact on my life is irrefutable. And they are a significant reason I refuse to wait until I’m 40 to embrace my authentic self.
These remarkable women have shared their liberating experiences, describing the transformative mindset they adopted once they crossed the threshold of 40. They talk about finally shedding societal expectations and confidently being their true selves—flaws and all. They convey that turning 40 feels like a magical release from the pressures of life, primarily out of sheer exhaustion after four decades of trying to meet those expectations.
Picture this: messy hair doused in dry shampoo and a well-loved dress from Target. Conversations about life’s toughest challenges with my kids become as routine as the Monday morning hustle to take out the trash. The people who have walked alongside me hold a special place in my heart, and finding sisterhood becomes a necessary lifeline. I’ve learned to cherish the little moments—like my daughter’s laughter or the comforting scent of my grandfather—while letting go of the noise surrounding celebrity gossip (goodbye, Bennifer). Life is filled with simple joys and complex challenges.
But I’m not waiting six more years for that so-called magic. I recently turned 34 and have accomplished quite a bit—I earned my degrees, launched my business, became a mother, and even navigated through love and heartbreak. I’ve worked in various roles, loved deeply, experienced financial ups and downs, and through it all, I refuse to put my growth on hold.
My bathroom cupboard currently holds four cans of dry shampoo, and I’m wearing a strapless dress that’s several years old. Just the other day, while cleaning out my daughter’s lunchbox, she asked me to explain what LGBTQ stands for. It was a moment that reminded me of the importance of being present and engaged in these conversations.
Recently, I took out the trash and felt an unexpected sense of accomplishment for managing to recycle properly. I made plans with a close friend who’s expecting her first child, eager to celebrate this beautiful chapter in her life. I eagerly await what memories TimeHop will unveil tomorrow, and I realize that the only reason I recognize any celebrities now is their songs playing during my Zumba class. Writing this from the beach, my makeshift office, I reflect on the loss of my sister to suicide in 2016—a reminder that life is both simpler and infinitely more complicated.
Perhaps I’m ahead of the game, but I feel I’ve grasped the essence of authentic living. I don’t believe my esteemed mentors got it wrong; rather, they’ve illuminated the path for those of us who are still learning to pay attention. Personal growth is fleeting if we don’t remain mindful. Life’s demands often distract us, making us forget to savor the sun or reconnect with friends. Just like that, six years can slip by, and before you know it, you’re staring down the barrel of 40.
So, I’m committed to being deliberate and intentional. I’m embracing the chaos, taking risks, and changing the narrative I tell myself. I’m believing in something greater than myself and loving fiercely. This is my reality at 34.
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In summary, I’m choosing to live fully in the present, refusing to wait for a landmark birthday to embrace my true self and the richness of life.