There’s a moment I never anticipated would come: I cried in front of my daughter. And not just any tears; these were tears stemming from my deep concern for her.
My 8-year-old daughter, Emma, has ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder), a diagnosis she received over three years ago. While ADHD brings advantages, such as creativity and out-of-the-box thinking, it also presents numerous challenges. Homework, particularly, has always been a struggle.
During the summer, Emma’s school assigns daily tasks that include a minimum of 30 minutes of reading and 20 minutes working on an online math program. While there are additional recommendations like journaling and keyboard practice, for a child like Emma, just meeting the basic requirements can feel overwhelming.
I’ve tried various strategies to make homework manageable for her. I encourage breaks, allow her to select the order of her tasks, and reward her with screen time afterward. Though these methods help, they can’t eliminate the intense frustration and anger she experiences when faced with challenging assignments. Despite her intelligence and her extraordinary ability to recognize patterns in numbers, math can be particularly daunting for her.
One day, while sitting together on stools in the kitchen, Emma was attempting her math program on my laptop. She became increasingly frustrated with one particular problem and soon found herself in full meltdown mode on the kitchen floor, declaring that she would never be able to solve it and that nothing I said could help.
As her anger escalated, so did mine. I felt helpless, questioning my choices—like whether it was right to pause her ADHD medication for the summer to help her gain weight when she was struggling with her studies. What was more important? I was torn between wanting her to be healthy and wanting her to succeed.
In the midst of her meltdown, I suggested she go to her Calm Down Area, knowing she wouldn’t be able to focus on her work at that moment. But she refused, wanting to remain on the floor, expressing her anger and fear. I felt defeated and scared. It frightened me to realize I didn’t know how to support my own child during such a tough time. I couldn’t help but worry about her future as a teenager and adult.
Yet, I stayed seated, knowing that leaving would only intensify her fears of abandonment. So, I let my emotions spill over for the first time, allowing her to witness my tears. When she saw the tears streaming down my cheeks, her entire demeanor shifted. She asked why I was crying, and I responded with the honest, trembling truth: “I don’t know how to help you.”
In that moment, she got up from the floor and hugged me tightly, saying, “I’m sorry, Mommy.” We both cried together—tears of sadness, frustration, and empathy. It was a pivotal moment for both of us.
By allowing Emma to see my vulnerability, she began to understand the profound impact her struggles had on those who care for her. She recognized that the person trying to help her also experiences frustration when faced with resistance. Most importantly, she saw the depth of my love and my unwavering commitment to her well-being.
After our heartfelt exchange, Emma returned to her stool, allowing me to help her with her math problem. Remarkably, she completed her entire assignment that day. Since then, she hasn’t had another meltdown during homework. Instead, she’s learned to take breaks when feeling overwhelmed, developing skills to manage her powerful emotions—something I could only hope for.
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In summary, allowing my daughter to see my tears opened a new avenue of understanding between us. It fostered empathy, recognition of shared struggles, and ultimately led to her learning how to cope with her emotions more effectively.