This past weekend, my husband and our son went skiing, while my 8-year-old daughter Lily and I stayed back at home. Lily is still in her eight-week recovery period from mono, and although she seems fine, she tires easily. On Saturday morning, we decided to take a trip to Fresh Pond. I jogged while she rode her bike alongside me on the familiar path. Normally, we complete two laps, with her often getting ahead and then looping back to wait for me. However, after just one lap around the reservoir, she hesitantly asked if we could stop. Breathing heavily, she mentioned that her legs felt tired. I wrapped my arms around her and agreed it was time to head home. As I loaded her bike into the car, I couldn’t shake the feeling that taking her out may have been a poor choice, inadvertently reminding her of her lingering illness.
Once we reached home, we snuggled into my bed to finish reading “Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.” We have a tradition: after completing a book, we celebrate by watching the corresponding movie. Lily sat by my side, her eyes sparkling as I read the final chapters. She occasionally interrupted with thoughtful questions, proving she was fully engaged. The dimly lit room, illuminated by glass lamps, and the soft whir of a fan created the perfect atmosphere for our afternoon together. It warmed my heart that Lily relished these quiet moments as much as I did.
After we turned the last page, I rummaged through the closet to find the movie, which I had tucked away among stacks of sweaters. Lily’s face brightened at the sight. “Can I watch that now, Mommy?” she asked before quickly correcting herself, “Oh, I mean, may I?” I had pointed out her misstep too many times.
“Of course, Lily,” I replied. I set the DVD in an old laptop and hit play. She leaned back against the pillows, her exhaustion evident in her slumped shoulders and heavy sighs. I recalled how she had slept for days following her mono diagnosis, dozing off in the car, at the kitchen table, and even in front of the TV, reminiscent of an infant.
After the movie, we decided to head to one of our favorite restaurants, Bella’s Bistro, just a couple of blocks away. Lily carried her cherished doll, Emma, dressed in her finest outfit, while her other hand instinctively slipped into mine. I tried not to dwell on how fleeting these moments were—the days when she wanted to hold my hand and the excitement of going out to dinner together.
At the dimly lit bistro, we settled into a booth and ordered our usual favorites: children’s nachos, some sparkling water, plain pasta with marinara on the side, and a fresh garden salad. Lately, Lily had been confidently ordering for herself, directly addressing the server with a polite, “Please, may I have.” Her growing independence filled me with pride.
When our drinks arrived, she eagerly took a sip of her bubbly water, her eyes darting around the room as she surveyed the other diners, the news on the TV, and checked on Emma, who sat beside her. I watched with affection as she took in her surroundings. Lily caught my gaze and smiled before continuing to observe the bustling restaurant.
In many ways, Lily embodies my past, her chocolate brown eyes reflecting my early struggles as a mother and my hopes for the future as she matures rapidly. Sometimes, being with her feels like a time warp, as I navigate a maze of memories where we share similarities and differences. This intricate bond fills me with both joy and anxiety about raising her well.
“Mommy?” she queried, drawing me back to the present with a question about the story’s villain. I nodded, focusing intently on her inquiry. Just then, the nachos arrived, and Lily burst into giggles as she lifted one, causing the entire platter to rise. When our main dishes came, she held her glass high and smiled brightly, “Cheers!” The moment was filled with joy, and I felt tears welling up. I clinked my glass against hers, overwhelmed by the beauty of our time together. I wanted to say, “Yes, it’s absolutely delightful,” but fear of tears stopped me. A thought echoed loudly in my mind: We may not return here again.
After dinner, we walked home, hand in hand, savoring the last moments of our special day.
This article was originally published on August 22, 2015.
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Summary:
In a heartfelt narrative, a mother recounts a weekend spent with her daughter, Lily, who is recovering from mono. They share intimate moments, from biking and reading to enjoying dinner together, all while reflecting on the fleeting nature of childhood. The story captures the joy and bittersweet emotions of parenting, highlighting the deep bond between mother and daughter as they navigate life’s challenges.