I have a cherished photo on my dresser featuring me with my eldest child, Mia. She was just a month old, resting on a Boppy Pillow as I leaned close, gazing at her while she looked up at the camera. At first glance, it captures a tender moment—an engaged and loving parent with their infant. However, it fails to convey the sense of isolation I felt during that time.
I had a support network and a partner who was equally devoted, but I still grappled with the overwhelming responsibilities that come with motherhood. The desire to be a good parent led me to believe that I must give everything to my children. I felt guilty and self-centered whenever I considered prioritizing my own needs, so I didn’t. This photo serves as a reminder of how misguided that belief was.
While I was aware that parenting requires sacrifice, I didn’t realize how essential it is to maintain one’s own identity. Nine years and two more children later, I have come to understand that it is impossible for anyone to exhaust themselves completely for another, not even for their kids. I do not blame my children for the unhealthy cycles I fell into; I often used them as excuses to avoid making choices that would prioritize my well-being.
Long before I recognized my need for sobriety, I knew I was struggling with alcohol. I also understood that my marriage was faltering, yet I convinced myself that I needed alcohol to cope with the chaos of raising three young children. I feared that a separation would devastate them, so I stayed in a relationship that was not fulfilling. Ultimately, I was sacrificing my own happiness and sanity. It took a year of sobriety for me to realize that choosing myself first is not selfish; it is essential to being the best parent I can be.
By being intentional about my self-care, I have become a more engaged and joyful parent. When I prioritize my own needs, I am better equipped to meet the needs of others, especially my children. One of my top priorities is exercise. It is crucial for my physical, emotional, and mental health, and plays a vital role in my recovery. I make it a point to work out regularly, whether it’s heading out to meet friends or using my home gym. My kids know that some weekends, I leave the house to exercise. If they ask to join, I find ways to include them in my routine without compromising my own needs.
I am learning to balance their requests with my own well-being. In the past, I often ignored my anxiety and frustration to say yes to their demands for games or activities that felt urgent. I would sometimes hide my emotions, thinking I could push through, but it often led to impatience and resentment. A few years ago, this was particularly evident during dinner preparation. With my children eager to help, I would struggle to manage their excitement while attempting to stay sober. Instead of allowing their presence to frustrate me, I learned to assign them simple tasks that let them be involved without overwhelming me.
At their ages of 9 and 6, I can now communicate my needs more directly. If I’m not in the right mindset, I can tell them when I’ll be available to participate in their activities. I often say, “I need a little time to finish this first. Can we play in 20 minutes?” They may not always appreciate the wait, but we both end up getting what we need.
It’s important to recognize that parenting doesn’t require martyrdom. Prioritizing self-care involves setting boundaries, saying no, and being honest about when you can help. This isn’t selfish; it’s a lesson I want to pass on to my kids about the importance of self-care. They see that we all need time to recharge and take care of ourselves before we can fully support others.
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In summary, prioritizing your own needs is essential for being a present and engaged parent. It allows you to model healthy boundaries and self-care for your children, showing them that taking time for oneself is not just acceptable but vital.