A poignant photo series captures the emotional turmoil surrounding miscarriage and infertility. For women who have experienced pregnancy loss, rainbow baby photos offer a glimmer of hope for the future. But what about those who are not actively trying to conceive yet still grapple with the complex feelings that follow a loss?
After enduring three miscarriages and six months of fertility treatments without success, Sarah Mitchell learned that IVF was her final option for carrying a pregnancy. Heartbroken, she sought a way to articulate her feelings before deciding on her next steps toward motherhood. Sarah reached out to photographer Mia Lane of Dreamy Photography, based in Los Angeles, to document her journey through a moving photo shoot.
Mia understood Sarah’s pain intimately. As a mother of two, she always envisioned having a larger family. “When my son turned two, we were open to getting pregnant again,” she shares. After two years of unsuccessful attempts to conceive a third child, Mia suffered a miscarriage. “After two healthy pregnancies, the doctors were perplexed. They conducted several tests and eventually diagnosed me with PCOS,” she explains. With her irregular ovulation cycle, Mia has largely let go of the dream of expanding her family. “Even though I’ve only experienced one miscarriage, the grief remains with me,” she says.
The inspiration for the photos emerged from a collaborative process. “When Sarah first approached me about the session, I reflected on all the emotions I felt after my miscarriage. The best way I could describe it was like a tornado,” Mia recalls. “There were so many highs and lows. I would often find myself lost in thought, feeling like my heart was being twisted. The tornado symbolizes those heart-wrenching emotions.”
Sarah identifies the poppy as a personal symbol, as baby books often mention that a four-week pregnancy is the size of a poppy seed. All her pregnancies ended very early, making her determined to move beyond the notion of a poppyseed. She shares her experiences on her blog, Beyond the Poppyseed, where she discusses her battles with infertility and loss.
Mia hopes the photos provide insight into the emotions surrounding miscarriage. “You can’t truly understand until you experience it yourself. Sometimes well-meaning comments can be painful without people realizing it,” she says. “Being told you can’t have children is gut-wrenching, and it often brings feelings of shame and internal conflict. Experiencing one or multiple losses can be incredibly challenging. Women facing this need support, not unsolicited advice.”
In one striking image, Sarah’s symbolic poppy intertwines with a rainbow, representing her ongoing hope for a rainbow baby.
The photo shoot proved to be a deeply emotional experience for both women. “There were moments when we walked in silence, and I found myself crying several times throughout the session and even more while editing,” Mia admits. “It was both therapeutic and heart-wrenching. I know I was meant to do this work, even when the stories are painful; it’s my responsibility to tell them.”
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In summary, this powerful portrayal of the emotional landscape surrounding pregnancy loss and infertility sheds light on the intricate experiences that many women endure. It serves as a reminder that support and understanding are crucial in navigating these challenging journeys.