When my partner and I welcomed our first child through adoption over a decade ago, I was unprepared for the emotional turmoil that awaited me. The journey began more than two and a half years before we held our baby in our arms. I had imagined the joy of caring for a newborn: washing bottles, changing diapers, and rocking my little one to sleep. I envisioned reading stories together, pushing her on swings, and sharing coffee with other mothers during playdates.
However, my transition into motherhood was anything but smooth. One moment, I was simply a hopeful parent; the next, I received a call from our social worker informing me that we were now parents. We hastily packed our bags and drove four hours to meet our daughter. As I held her for the first time, her foster mom exclaimed, “She’s hungry and poopy, Mommy!” I vividly remember that moment—it marked a profound change in my life. Little did I know, this experience would lead me to confront the reality of post-adoption depression.
People often assume that adopting a child fills parents with endless happiness and gratitude, creating a perfect family dynamic. While we were undeniably thrilled to finally be parents, there were moments when I found myself wrestling with feelings of sadness.
At nine months old, as I rocked my daughter to sleep in her softly lit nursery, a thought struck me: I had cared for her for the same amount of time her birth mother did. Though her time with her birth mom was limited to the nine months of pregnancy, that bond was sacred. I began to reflect on the abrupt transitions she experienced—from her birth mother to a foster family and then to us. This whirlwind of change was monumental for a newborn. I grappled with feelings of guilt and questioned my worthiness as her mother. How could I, a white woman, be the right parent for my black daughter? These questions only intensified as our family grew with three more adoptions.
Post-adoption depression isn’t classified as an official medical diagnosis, yet many adoptive parents recognize it as a legitimate emotional struggle, akin to postpartum depression experienced by biological parents. I discovered a resource titled The Post Adoption Blues: Overcoming the Unforeseen Challenges in Adoption after bringing our second daughter home. Engaging in conversations with fellow adoptive parents revealed that this issue is more common than I had imagined.
Adoption narratives often swing between horror stories and fairy-tale endings, neglecting the intricate realities in between. Whether the experience is smooth or fraught with challenges, the emotional toll of adoption can lead to post-adoption depression. This is particularly true for parents who adopt older children, siblings, children with special needs, or those adopted across racial lines.
Real Stories of Post-Adoption Depression
Take, for instance, Leah Thompson, who shared her story with us. When she and her husband received the call to adopt a newborn, they quickly found themselves facing unexpected legal obstacles, leading to a prolonged stay in a rental with mounting expenses. Even amidst the joy of their new addition, Leah felt overwhelmed, questioning her emotional state.
Similarly, Maxine Reed adopted her son from overseas and thought she was fully prepared for the complexities involved. However, upon bringing him home, she realized she didn’t possess the same instincts she had with her biological daughters. Instead of feeling compassion when he cried, she felt frustration, leaving her feeling guilty and confused. It wasn’t until she researched postpartum depression that she recognized the symptoms in herself and sought help.
Another parent, Leo Adams, experienced a dramatic shift when transitioning from a full-time job to maternity leave after adopting two daughters. This life change triggered feelings of guilt and sadness over his lack of enthusiasm for his new role. It took time and professional support for him to understand the source of his depression.
Throughout our own adoption journeys, no professional ever warned us about post-adoption depression. Unlike biological parents who receive postpartum screenings from their doctors, adoptive parents often face assumptions that they are simply overjoyed. The truth is that adoption can be a complicated and emotional experience, and we must acknowledge that adoptive parents, too, can struggle with feelings of depression in their new roles.
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To summarize, post-adoption depression is a real and significant issue that many adoptive parents face. It’s essential to normalize discussions around these feelings and seek support. We must recognize that, while adoption is often viewed through a lens of joy and gratitude, it can also carry emotional challenges that deserve attention and understanding.