Intimate partner abuse doesn’t always manifest in obvious ways. It doesn’t always involve intoxicated individuals or physical altercations during major events. Nor is it restricted to any particular socio-economic group. Sometimes, abuse is expressed through subtle threats, as I learned on March 17 a few years back.
I married young, and our wedding was hurriedly arranged, leading many to assume I was expecting. When a friend’s mother directly asked me if I was pregnant and I denied it, she insisted that I should finish my education before starting a family. I agreed, and my husband fully supported that decision. We envisioned our future and weren’t ready for children just yet.
My in-laws often warned me about how children could upset our lives, suggesting we might be better off without them. My mother also chimed in, mentioning how having me had strained her relationship with my father. With such advice, it was easy to postpone having kids until after college.
After I graduated, we postponed starting a family yet again, this time for my husband to pursue graduate studies. Eventually, we began to relish the perks of his education, buying a home and filling it with new furniture instead of hand-me-downs. Still, the prospect of having children felt uncertain to me.
On one St. Patrick’s Day, however, the choice about parenthood was taken from me. My husband and I were vacationing with his family in a coastal town to celebrate a significant family event. The weather was dismal, forcing us to spend most of our time indoors at the rented house. After a few days of family bonding, we decided to venture out in the rain for lunch. We settled into a dimly lit restaurant that offered a cozy atmosphere.
Somehow, the conversation shifted to children. I remember expressing that if I unexpectedly became pregnant, I would want to keep the baby, as we could provide a good life for a child. My husband then posed a provocative question: “What if an amniocentesis suggested the child might have Down Syndrome?” While I am staunchly pro-choice, I believed our circumstances would make terminating a viable pregnancy morally wrong unless my health was at stake.
Then, he made a chilling remark: “It doesn’t matter; if you get pregnant, I’ll just bring home a shot and give it to you while you’re sleeping. You’ll abort.” At first, I laughed it off. But the reality struck me hard—he is a physician, someone who delivers babies and has performed abortions.
I was left feeling cold and nauseated. Coupled with his past violent behavior, I realized he could follow through on this threat. I tried to suppress my feelings and finished the meal quietly. When we returned to the house, my husband didn’t acknowledge my silence.
Later that evening, while his family celebrated downstairs, I retreated to our room and cried into a pillow for hours. When I eventually fell asleep, I didn’t hear him come in. The next morning, he commented on my puffy eyes, but I shrugged it off. When he later noticed my withdrawal, I broke down and explained why I was upset. He dismissed my feelings, claiming he was only joking and that I should have known better.
However, he never apologized for his horrific words. Soon after we returned home from the trip, he underwent a vasectomy.
Intimate partner abuse can take many forms, and for years, I didn’t recognize such threats as abuse. I stayed with my husband far too long. Every St. Patrick’s Day, I reflect on the type of person who could “joke” about forcing an abortion against his wife’s will. I’m grateful to have escaped that situation.
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Summary
In this article, Melissa Carter shares her experience with a disturbing threat made by her ex-husband regarding coerced abortion. Reflecting on the subtle forms of intimate partner abuse, she recounts how she initially dismissed his comments as a joke, only to recognize the seriousness of his threat later. Ultimately, she emphasizes the importance of recognizing abusive behaviors and the need for supportive relationships in the aftermath.