You thought you had let go, but the truth is, the cord is still tethered. Your son is now 19, approaching 20, and you believed that allowing him to move in with his father during his senior year was the moment of release. It felt like the most painful chapter of your life. But that wasn’t it, not by a long shot.
When you dropped him off at his dorm room, you thought, “This is it. I’m finally letting him go.” Yet, as you drove home, tears streaming down your face, memories of his tiny hand in yours flooded your mind.
Now, he announces his desire to quit college and chase his dreams in Chicago, driven by an insatiable passion for acting and theatre. He’s eager to work, save money, and make that move as soon as he can.
“Mom, this is the moment,” he insists.
All those times you thought you were ready to release him from your grasp, you were still hovering, your protective instincts kicking in. The reality hits: your grip is too tight. You feel the urge to reign him in, to protect him from the follies of youth. But with each tightening hold, you realize that he pushes back harder, a wave of fear crashing over you. You worry about someone taking advantage of his gentle nature, the crushing weight of rejection bearing down on him, and the possibility that his inner fire may dim.
“Where’s your optimism?” he would challenge you.
“Why so gloomy, Mama?” he would quip in a playful Irish accent, and through your tears, you’d manage a laugh. He’d place a reassuring hand on your shoulder and then say, “I need chips and laundry detergent.”
Where is your faith? Where is the belief that he can not only succeed but thrive? Trust that he will find his path in this vast world. It’s not as daunting as it seems. There is light amidst the shadows, and he is one of those bright lights.
Let him shine. Let him fly.
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In summary, as a mother, the toughest part of parenting can often be letting go. It’s essential to maintain faith in your child’s journey while allowing them the freedom to explore their own path.