I Received Early Access to the COVID Vaccine as a Doctor, but I Chose to Get It as a Mother

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Throughout the pandemic, I’ve shed many tears, but none hit harder than after receiving my COVID vaccine. As I sat in the observation area following my first dose, I was in disbelief. Just months prior, the idea of returning to normalcy felt utterly unattainable amid our nation’s inconsistent closures and the troubling trend of politicizing science. After my vaccination, I resumed my routine of obsessively reading scientific literature and news articles. I consulted with experts far more knowledgeable than I am, prepared for the expected side effects and rare adverse reactions that could arise. I equipped myself with facts to counter the growing tide of anti-vaccine misinformation. Most importantly, I braced myself for my biggest fear: that these vaccines wouldn’t be as effective as touted.

Here’s the most astonishing part: these vaccines are proving to be even more effective than we could have imagined. After my second dose, I found myself crying again. I experienced a profound sense of hope and relief so powerful it relaxed my entire body, even under the weight of my well-worn N95 mask. I felt a sense of protection and security that had been absent since before the pandemic.

Now, fully vaccinated and weeks beyond my second dose, I am filled with an overwhelming desire to celebrate, to hold my daughter close, and to share with her how mommy’s “COVID shot” will help keep our family healthy and protect those around us. However, this initial triumph is overshadowed by the many challenges that lie ahead. My tears of hope have slowly been replaced by a persistent sense of dread.

The obstacles to broad vaccine acceptance seem to multiply, with the most formidable being a cleverly orchestrated disinformation campaign. Misinformation spreads like wildfire online, with opportunists exploiting our deepest fears for their gain. The anti-vaccine movement, which pediatricians now know all too well, preys on parents, who want only the best for their children, manipulating their instincts against their own interests.

It’s easy to mistake misinformation for healthy skepticism, as there are valid reasons to approach the healthcare system with caution. The medical field is still grappling with its history of unethical testing and exploitation, particularly of minority communities. Our profit-driven industries frequently prioritize financial gain over healing, and our medical institutions are far from flawless. Scrutinizing our recommendations isn’t just justified—it’s essential.

Yet, even with thorough examination and all available tools to analyze the data, there’s no denying that these vaccines are safe, effective, and absolutely essential. The online falsehoods do nothing to assist the families I see in my practice, the friends I counsel, or the parents I engage with on social media. Instead, they exploit our painful history and manipulate our fears, undermining our autonomy in ways we vehemently oppose.

As a physician, I can provide insights into the safety and efficacy of these vaccines and direct you to reputable resources and esteemed experts. I can address the risks and benefits for parents, children, pregnant individuals, and breastfeeding women, all grounded in solid science. But right now, I want to speak as a mother—to every parent considering this life-saving vaccine.

As a mother, I face my most challenging decisions, and I want nothing more than to create the safest environment for my child. Despite knowing at my core that these vaccines are our only way forward, my heart races with every anti-vaccine lie. The myth linking the vaccine to infertility hit particularly hard; it felt deeply personal. This falsehood lacks any biological or scientific foundation, yet as a mother who has faced reproductive struggles and pregnancy loss, it was a painful blow. Nothing feels more manipulative than using our parental fears against us, especially regarding our ability to be parents now and in the future.

As a mother, I understand how these lies can rattle our very being, despite all logic. They whisper unsettling “what ifs” — what if something happens to us from the vaccine? What if, even worse, something affects our ability to parent? What if tragedy strikes our children or future children? What if misinformation misleads us into believing that our salvation could actually cause harm?

I also recognize how inadequate the medical community’s efforts have been in reassuring parents about these vaccines. I accept the responsibility for this failure. Advocates for these vaccines are trained in science and accustomed to uncertainty. We grapple with the reality that nothing in life comes with a 100% guarantee. We sift through data, employing a wealth of scientific knowledge to make informed decisions about risks and benefits. We understand that life-saving treatments come with uncertainties and live in a world of inherent doubt.

It’s as a mother that I see how those promoting fear around these miracle vaccines exploit this uncertainty. With no regard for scientific integrity, many claim that any uncertainty equates to danger. The scientific community has been reluctant to counter sweeping lies with bold truths, humbled by the myriad of unknowns. So, as a mother, I will take the microphone. These vaccines are safe. These vaccines are effective. These vaccines are necessary. These vaccines will save lives.

Like all immunizations, these vaccines represent the closest thing to certainty in medicine. Vaccines have historically prevented countless deaths and suffering, second only to modern sanitation. These vaccines are a double miracle, offering life-saving benefits while enabling us to end a devastating pandemic in record time—if we choose to embrace them.

For months, I’ve been told that by advocating for masks and social distancing, I live in fear. My response has always been the same. I’m living with hope, waiting for a safe conclusion to this nightmare, confident that my daughter is resilient and will flourish. I’ve worked tirelessly to keep my family and community safe, and the vaccine brings that safe end into view. I received my shots without fear. Now, those accusing me of spreading fear about the virus do the same regarding its life-saving remedy.

I got my vaccine as a pediatrician, scientist, and humanist. But above all, I got this vaccine as a mother. I drowned out the harmful, manipulative noise aimed at exploiting my parental insecurities. I disregarded the lies and fears with no basis in fact that sought to deceive me. I chose this vaccine for my health, but more importantly, I chose it for my daughter. As her mother, I trusted that scientific reasoning and my instinct would guide me to accept this life-saving, pandemic-ending shot. I hope all parents can feel empowered to make this liberating choice.

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In summary, my journey to getting vaccinated was not just as a medical professional but as a mother who wishes to ensure a safe future for her child. I encourage all parents to embrace the life-saving potential of these vaccines, dismissing the harmful misinformation that seeks to undermine our well-being.