A few weeks back, I hosted a small, pandemic-safe birthday celebration for my daughter’s fourth birthday. I wanted to bring some joy to what has been a strange year for her and for all of us, so I dedicated a lot of time to planning the event. She requested a princess cake, so I donned my apron and created an impressive (albeit slightly crooked) cake. She also wanted a piñata, which led me to scour Pinterest for ideas, and I nearly injured myself while crafting it. I added princess-themed crafts, a bright pink princess dress, and an assortment of gaudy princess jewelry.
On the day of the celebration, my daughter seemed to enjoy herself. She was thrilled with her dress, indulged in cake, and ensured her friends left with the least attractive pieces of jewelry. Most notably, however, she completely ignored me throughout the party.
Going into it, I didn’t really expect her to show a lot of gratitude; she is only four and still needs reminders to say please and thank you. But as she spent the event dodging my attempts to take a photo or share a slice of cake, I felt a twinge of sadness.
Once her friends departed, she dashed to her room to play with her new jewelry box—alone. In a moment of desperation, I turned to my partner and asked, “Do you think she liked it?” He replied, “She’s four, and there was cake. I’m pretty sure she liked it.”
It’s worth noting that my daughter ignored him throughout the day as well, which didn’t seem to bother him at all. He has a better grasp of child development, thanks to insights I later discovered from experts like Janet Lansbury, who emphasize that four-year-olds have limited capacity to show appreciation.
Moreover, my daughter, like many kids, has been in quarantine for almost a year. Having a backyard party, even with just a couple of friends, was likely overwhelming for her. It made sense that she focused more on the fun, her friends, and the sugar high than on recognizing my efforts.
Ultimately, her indifference didn’t reflect my parenting or the party itself; it was simply about her being a four-year-old. For the past decade, I was a middle school English teacher, and like many educators, I often sought validation in unhealthy ways.
Each year, I taught around 120 students. While some liked me, others didn’t, and I found myself fixating on the negative opinions. If a student or a parent wasn’t a fan, I would obsess over it, and any criticism from colleagues could ruin my day.
After I had my first child, I started to care a little less about others’ opinions. I still had moments of self-doubt and shared my grievances with my partner, who would listen patiently. However, I began to shed some of my oversensitivity.
A few hours after the birthday party, a friend texted me, sharing how much fun she had at the celebration and even asking how I made the piñata. That compliment filled me with pride and triggered an important realization.
My daughter is just a child; she isn’t in charge of my self-worth or my assessment of my parenting. Why was I allowing my sense of accomplishment to hinge on her feedback?
I took the time to organize an event for her, clean the house, bake a cake, and even involved my husband in finishing the piñata after my crafting mishap. I demonstrated to her that she is loved and valued, and that alone should have been enough to give me peace of mind.
While it can be tempting to let my children’s unpredictable responses dictate my feelings about my parenting, I’ve realized that this method is flawed. Just as I wouldn’t allow a disinterested teenager to critique my teaching, I shouldn’t let my daughter’s fleeting dissatisfaction undermine my confidence as a parent.
As my kids grow, they will undoubtedly have plenty of opinions about how we raise them. I’m sure they will offer feedback on what they enjoy and what they don’t. While it’s important to be open to constructive criticism, it’s equally crucial to trust ourselves.
As I plan my younger son’s upcoming birthday party, I feel empowered by the knowledge that I can care less about others’ opinions and focus more on what I know is best for him. Even if he ends up allergic to something at the petting zoo or changes his mind last minute about the cake theme, it’s my love, effort, and thoughtfulness that truly matter.
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