Cherish the Present, Let Go of Regrets
My mother often battled feelings of guilt over not being more present during my sister’s and my childhood. She longed for a deeper connection with us and her grandchildren. What I wish she could have realized was that she still had countless opportunities to be involved in our lives as adults. Determined not to repeat her regrets, I strive to make the most of my time with my daughters. I focus on intentional moments—whether it’s snuggling during storytime or sharing loving words. We only have about 18 years before our children transition into adulthood, and I refuse to waste that precious time. I’m also aware that I’m human, and there are days when fatigue or stress gets the best of me. Mistakes are inevitable, but I choose to forgive myself and learn from these experiences.
Leave Behind Words of Love
My mother left this world without any final messages—no letters or goodbyes to hold onto. The memories of her may fade, but written words can preserve her spirit. I wish I could have her comforting notes to read. In her honor, I’ve begun journaling for each of my daughters, expressing my love and hopes for their futures. These letters, though simple, will serve as reminders of my affection for them, ensuring they know how deeply they are cherished.
Recognize Your Inner Beauty
My mother often focused on her perceived flaws, from her skin to her weight, failing to see the beauty that I—and many others—saw in her. To me, she was the most beautiful woman in the world, and I know my children feel the same about me. My preschooler is always eager to adorn me with accessories, declaring, “Mommy, you look so beautiful!” I will embrace her compliments and model self-acceptance for my daughters, showing them how to appreciate their unique beauty and strengths. I won’t shy away from taking photos or enjoying life due to my insecurities; after all, these moments are too precious to miss.
Prioritize Your Well-Being
My mother was the epitome of selflessness, often neglecting her own needs while caring for others. While many of us may never face the same mental health challenges she did, it’s essential to recognize how poor self-care can lead to overwhelming stress. I refuse to let my health choices affect my ability to be the mother my daughters deserve. By prioritizing my well-being—eating well, exercising, and making time for personal passions—I can be a better parent and partner. It’s crucial to carve out moments for friends, hobbies, and self-care.
I hope no one else has to endure the pain of losing a loved one in such a tragic way. However, I do hope to inspire other mothers by sharing the lessons I’ve learned through my journey. For more insights on family planning and resources, you can explore this article on home insemination kits or check out this authoritative site on fertility. Additionally, this Wikipedia page provides excellent information about pregnancy and home insemination.
Summary
Losing my mother to suicide was a profound tragedy that reshaped my approach to motherhood. Through her absence, I’ve learned to cherish each moment with my daughters, to express my love in written words, to embrace our unique beauty, and to prioritize self-care. These lessons, born from deep sorrow, have guided me in becoming a more intentional and loving mother.