As a divorced mom, I have made a conscious choice not to go out when my children are with me. Over the past two years, I’ve experienced a profound shift in my daily life: the loss of the privilege to share every morning and evening with my kids.
Family Gatherings
In the past, our family would gather around the dining table, filling each seat with laughter and the occasional frustration over table manners. My children, with their youthful energy, would often challenge the idea of using utensils, opting instead for a more hands-on approach to enjoying pasta. After dinner, I would tidy up while they tackled their homework at the kitchen island, and we’d spend evenings arguing over which show to watch—be it Wheel of Fortune or Seinfeld reruns. We’d occasionally venture outside to snowshoe or walk the dog. I cherished those nights spent on the couch reading while my ex-husband played basketball with the kids, feeling grateful for the presence of my children every evening.
Morning Rituals
Mornings were equally special. I would joyfully greet them in the hallway, my cheerful voice often met with groans as they transitioned into their teenage years. I’d open their curtains, remind them they had fifteen minutes to get up, and share a little “mom pep talk” to help them embrace the day ahead.
The Silence of Absence
Now, however, three nights a week, the house falls silent. The dining chairs sit empty, the kitchen island is devoid of homework clutter, and there’s no longer a sink full of dishes waiting to be washed. The absence of my children creates a loneliness that is almost unbearable. I often find myself heading downstairs in the morning without looking down the hall, trying to avoid the emptiness that looms behind closed doors.
Embracing a New Chapter
Since my divorce, I’ve been determined to embrace this new chapter in life. I deserve joy and fulfillment outside of motherhood, and I refuse to place the weight of my happiness solely on my children. While I stay busy when they are at their dad’s, I make a deliberate choice to prioritize our time together on the nights they are with me.
Choosing Family Time
When I decline invitations to social events or evenings out with friends, I am often met with confusion. Some people question my decision, suggesting that since my kids are teenagers, I could easily leave them alone. But the truth is, I don’t want to. I treasure the time we have together, knowing it’s fleeting. Soon enough, they will be off to start their own lives, and I want to relish every moment we have.
Finding Balance
I understand that it’s important for parents to cultivate their own identities and have fun outside of family life, and I’m learning how to strike that balance. Yet, for me, dedicating four nights a week to my kids is essential for my well-being. I would rather miss out on a night out than be apart from my children.
Support from Loved Ones
Those who matter in my life understand and respect my priorities, knowing that this time with my kids is invaluable. There will be ample opportunities in the future to be carefree and social, but right now, I want to be present for my children while they are still at home.
Conclusion
In conclusion, I am committed to being with my kids during our time together. I want to soak in every moment and create lasting memories before they grow up and leave the nest. The dynamics of our family have changed, but the importance of our bond remains steadfast.
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