I realize you didn’t expect to marry someone who battles depression. When we first crossed paths, my struggles were well-concealed, even from myself. It wasn’t until our precious baby girl entered the world that the weight of it all truly surfaced. Yet, you stood by me. You didn’t turn away, express anger, or demand that I just “get over it.” Instead, you listened and supported my journey towards healing.
Though I have sought help, I still face challenging moments. Together, we’ve come to understand that my battle with depression extends beyond just postpartum issues. It had been quietly present for years before our daughter was born, only to become more prominent after her arrival. But through it all, you remain by my side. You chose me, not just because we have a child together, but because you recognized my worth despite the storms we face. For that, I am endlessly grateful.
I know my depression can cast a shadow over your happiness at times. Your joy is intertwined with mine; when I’m down, it weighs heavily on you. Sharing my darkest thoughts can make you feel helpless, but even then, you stick around, striving to find joy for both of us.
Sometimes, it might seem as if my depression is a selfish burden. I have so many blessings: a wonderful husband and a beautiful child. Yet, sadness still finds me. You may wonder if you’re somehow responsible or if there’s more you could do. I want to assure you, please never blame yourself for my mental health challenges. You didn’t cause this, and you cannot magically fix it. All I need is your presence and unwavering support. With therapy and medication, I’m determined to navigate through this.
I often voice that life feels unbearable, and there are times I wish I hadn’t existed. But please know this isn’t a reflection of how I feel about you or our daughter. You both are my anchors, the reasons I keep fighting. Sometimes, I ponder whether I would have avoided this pain had I never been born. But if that were true, I would also miss the incredible love you both bring into my life. Now that I know what I could miss, I am committed to staying.
Thank you for allowing me to prioritize my mental health. Your support for my therapy sessions and medication is invaluable, even if it adds up. I appreciate your understanding when I can’t cook dinner, opting for takeout instead. Thank you for indulging my cravings during tough days and for those late-night conversations when you sense something’s off.
Just as you have been my rock, I will always be there for you. I remember when you faced your struggles with anxiety; it brought me comfort to show you that I could support you just as you support me. I hope I was able to be that source of love and strength for you. Now that you’ve found your footing again, know that if those feelings come back, I’ll be right here, ready to help.
Life will undoubtedly throw challenges our way—job losses, illness, and loss of loved ones. Yet, through it all, my place is by your side. It’s not just because you’ve always been there for me; it’s because I love you deeply and want to share this journey with you. Even in my darkest moments, your presence brings me joy. Beneath the clouds of depression, my smile still shines, even if it isn’t always visible.
I often reflect on whether you might be happier with someone else, someone free from these struggles. But I believe we’re together for a reason. No matter what happens, I know I wouldn’t have found the same support with anyone else. Our understanding of each other’s needs is something unique, and it’s what makes us strong.
So, as long as I’m here, and even beyond, I will continue to love you and stand beside you. You are an incredible husband and father, and I am thankful for every moment we share. If only every woman could experience the love you give me; it truly is a gift. But I’ll cherish it, and I promise to love you even more for it.
With all my love,
Your Forever Grateful Wife