As I catch sight of you in your room, engrossed in whatever activity has captured your attention, I hesitate to approach. I don’t lean in to see what project you’re working on, nor do I express concern that you might feel excluded from your siblings’ playtime. My gaze is drawn away from you, landing instead on your brother and sister, who are laughing together, sharing whispers and joyous moments. It’s a sight that brings a mix of emotions—while I feel the warmth of their happiness, my heart aches with worry.
My concerns for them are overwhelming. I fear that your older sister, Mia, is drifting away from me as she immerses herself in friendships and the demands of adolescence. I envy the bond she shares with your father and question why I cannot connect with her in the same way. I worry that she suppresses her feelings instead of sharing them, carrying burdens alone. Similarly, your younger brother, Leo, is so sensitive; his emotions run deep, and I often question whether I’m providing him with the guidance he needs. His experiences as a child of divorce weigh heavily on my heart, and I wish I could give him the love and attention he deserves.
Despite these worries, I find that I understand you, my dear Emily, in ways I struggle to comprehend your siblings. You are open about your thoughts and feelings, and your straightforwardness provides me with a sense of clarity. You reflect your emotions through humor and maintain your independence. I appreciate that you articulate your needs directly, and while you might occasionally display a bit of that classic ‘tween attitude, I never take it to heart; I recognize it as a phase I’ve experienced myself.
However, I realize now that my confidence in your resilience may have led me to be less attentive. I’ve taken your easy-going nature for granted, mistakenly believing that you are always okay. I remember just yesterday when you asked me to fetch your soccer gear and I replied sharply, “You can get it yourself.” This moment struck me like a bolt of lightning; I would never address your siblings that way. My concern for them has overshadowed my awareness of your needs.
I have unintentionally misused your strength – how many times have I raised my voice to you, hoping your siblings would hear a lesson meant for them? I’ve reacted with impatience when feeling overwhelmed, failing to remember that you also deserve my kindness and understanding. I’ve let my worries for them blind me to your needs, assuming you could handle everything on your own.
Now, I am filled with concern. I worry that I haven’t nurtured you enough or that you feel left out when your siblings bond without you. I fear that my high expectations have made you feel unloved or unappreciated. It pains me to think that my lack of attention might have impacted your self-worth.
My own mother once told me that a parent’s happiness is tied to their child’s well-being, and I find that to be profoundly true. But it’s difficult to know where to draw the line. Each of you is unique, and I strive to love you equally while respecting your individuality. My heart is bursting with love for all of you, and I wish to ensure that you each feel cherished in your own way.
I may not have all the answers as a mother, but I am committed to nurturing you with unconditional love. I want you to feel safe in sharing your thoughts, fears, and dreams with me. My hope is for you all to support one another, celebrating victories and comforting one another in hardship without envy.
As I embark on this journey of self-improvement, I ask for your understanding. I’m aware that my efforts may not always meet your needs, and I will continue to strive to do better. Each day, I wake up determined to be the best mother I can be, learning from my mistakes along the way.
So, sweet Emily, as you rest your head tonight, remember that you are deeply loved. I treasure the unique qualities you and your siblings possess, and our bond is special. My love for you is infinite, transcending actions and words. It is a strong connection that unites us, a force I would never trade for anything.
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Summary
This reflective letter conveys a mother’s heartfelt acknowledgment of her parenting approach toward her middle child, Emily. It explores her worries for her other children, the misinterpretation of Emily’s resilience, and her commitment to ensuring that all her children feel loved and understood.