I want to talk to you about a tough day I had recently. You might have noticed me indulging in last year’s Halloween candy like it was a gourmet treat. You saw me break down on the living room floor, holding our dog while tears streamed down my face. I admit, I raised my voice more than I should have over little things that didn’t really matter. You even witnessed me retreat upstairs while the sun was still shining, seeking solace in my bed just to escape the day. You came to comfort me, running your fingers through my hair while I curled up, trying to bury myself in a book.
I can imagine it’s a bit unsettling to see the person you rely on for safety and comfort struggle with her own emotions. The reality is, I can’t always pinpoint why I feel this way. It would be simpler if I had a clear reason to offer you—a specific event that triggered my sadness. I wish I could share something tangible with you, something you could understand and make sense of.
It’s not like when we lost Grandpa or when the news shows us things that are hard to watch. I can’t say, “Mommy is upset because of a family issue.” On days like that, my feelings don’t even make sense to me. I can’t articulate why it feels like I’m teetering on the edge. I just know that feeling is creeping in, and despite my efforts, I can’t seem to shake it.
You should know that I don’t always have the answers. I’m just as human as anyone else. It’s important for you to understand that my struggles are not your fault. You are my world, and even on the days when I seem to be falling apart, my love for you remains unwavering. Life can be challenging, and it’s okay if I’m not always my best self. It’s perfectly normal for all of us to feel overwhelmed sometimes.
What you do for me—picking flowers from the garden or bringing me my cozy blanket—means more than you realize. Beneath my sadness, I always feel your presence, my most cherished treasures. My love for you runs deep, even on the days I might not be at my best or when I might raise my voice. Please promise me one thing: never doubt that love.
Family is about being real with one another. We don’t always have to put on a brave face. We can acknowledge our struggles together. It’s okay to feel like we’re falling apart. The truth is, we often try our hardest, and when we feel like we’ve failed, it only adds to the weight we carry.
When I’m having a tough time, I try to remind myself that the brighter days wouldn’t shine quite as brilliantly without the shadow of the difficult ones. Bad days serve a purpose; they can teach us lessons, but they can also overwhelm us. They can catch us off guard and feel like they’re consuming everything.
Yet, you are my light in those dark moments—your laughter, your thoughtful little snacks, and your sweet singing lift my spirits.
So yes, I had a rough day recently, and I know there will be more to come. But please, never question my love for you—whether it’s a good day or a bad day, my love remains constant.
With all my love,
Mom
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In Summary
It’s okay to have tough days, and it’s important to recognize that our struggles don’t diminish the love we share. We can be real with each other, and our family bond remains strong even in challenging times.