I settle into the couch at Claire’s place, absorbing the changes in the room since my last visit. The bookshelf has shifted positions, the desk has relocated, but the familiar clipboard and small clock still sit on the table.
Over time, I have cultivated a deep trust in my counselor. I feel free to express anything to her, a journey that has taken years to reach this level of comfort. I can now dive straight into the heart of my thoughts.
Trust is a complex construct — it often takes significant time to establish, but when it’s solidified, it becomes a sanctuary. I share my burdens, we laugh about lighter topics, and eventually, our session comes to a close.
Claire has a unique way of preparing me to step back into the world outside her office. She instills a sense of courage in me, understanding that her office is a safe space where I can lower my defenses. Yet, as I leave, I realize I need a different kind of armor to navigate the outside world. It’s about shedding the protective layers that inhibit growth while donning a new type of shield that nurtures it.
I’ve entered her office burdened with shame and doubt but leave feeling empowered with forgiveness and bravery.
As we conclude our session, she tells me, “Your instincts are strong. They truly are.” I manage to hold back tears for nearly 48 minutes, but her affirmation settles into my heart, urging me to absorb it. I take a deep breath, holding onto her words, as tears gather in my eyes, revealing what I’ve been suppressing.
For so long, I felt ashamed of my sensitivity. I fought to keep my tears at bay, hiding my body’s natural reactions to life. However, I am learning to listen; my body has messages to share. Today, my tears affirm that I can trust myself, my body, and my intuition.
I express to Claire how her words have initiated a healing process that I didn’t realize I needed. As I step outside, taking in the fresh air, I don my new armor of self-trust.
No matter what narratives the world has imposed upon you, narratives you may have internalized, know this: you are inherently good.
You are so fundamentally GOOD, my friend. We are not defined by our mistakes or shortcomings. We are not the labels assigned to us by others. We. Are. Good. You are absolutely good, and so am I.
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In summary, embracing sensitivity is a journey towards self-acceptance and trust. We must learn to honor our instincts and allow them to guide us through life, shedding the negative beliefs that have held us back.