For the first eight years of my parenting journey, I was primarily a stay-at-home mom. While I dabbled in part-time work as a breastfeeding counselor and lactation consultant on weekends, it wasn’t exactly a break from my children—hello, adorable but loud newborns and emotional new mothers!
In recent years, I transitioned to working as a freelance writer from home, especially as my youngest started school. Now, I often find myself tucked away in my “office” (also known as my bedroom) for around 20 hours a week, focusing on writing. This time isn’t a true escape from parenting; it involves serious commitments like researching, connecting with editors, and producing quality content. However, it does provide me with precious moments of solitude where I can immerse myself in my work, away from the hustle and bustle of family life.
Reflecting on those early years of motherhood, I realize how exhausted I often felt. Though being a stay-at-home mom was a dream I willingly embraced, the relentless demands of parenting can be overwhelming. I adored those early days when my children were so dependent on me, but I often struggled with anxiety and feelings of depletion. By the end of the day, I felt utterly worn out, my body heavy with fatigue. It wasn’t just the sleepless nights or constant demands; it was a sensory overload that left me feeling disconnected from my true self, buried under a sea of drool, breast milk, and tears.
A few years ago, I discovered the work of Dr. Elaine Aron, who introduced the concept of the highly sensitive person (HSP). When I read her description, everything clicked into place. I recognized myself completely in her words, and it explained much of my lifelong struggle and my challenges during those intense parenting years. HSPs are easily overwhelmed by sensory input—bright lights, loud noises, and chaotic environments—and often need to retreat from social situations sooner than others.
It became clear early on that I wouldn’t be the type of parent arranging countless playdates or social activities for my children. I prioritized quiet time during their naps and after bedtime; I used those moments to recharge instead of tackling household chores. I rarely ventured out at night, craving the tranquility of my sleeping home.
While I managed to find a way to parent happily as a sensitive individual, I now realize that occasional quiet moments weren’t enough. I require several hours of uninterrupted alone time each day to maintain my mental well-being. This time allows me to process, reflect, and decompress—much more than what’s typically available to a parent who’s on duty 24/7.
Though I cherish the memories of my full-time motherhood, I recognize that the balance I’ve found now is far healthier for my emotional state. Some mothers can thrive in a 24/7 parenting role, but I’ve learned that I am not one of them in the long term. Embracing my sensitive nature rather than pushing it aside has been liberating. I realize now that my sensitivity is a gift, allowing me to be attuned to my children’s needs, whether I’m with them all the time or not.
Even with the balance I’ve established, there are moments when I still need to withdraw from the chaos. I’ll tell my kids, “I need some quiet,” as I retreat to my bedroom for a few minutes of meditation. They’ve come to understand this need, and I hope to teach them that prioritizing one’s own needs is a strength, not a weakness.
Every mother faces unique challenges, and it can be difficult to prioritize self-care amidst the demands of early motherhood. However, feeling overwhelmed is detrimental to both ourselves and our children. The reality is that nurturing your mental health is one of the most crucial aspects of motherhood. Recognizing what you need to feel balanced and happy is the first step, and taking action to meet those needs will ultimately benefit everyone involved.
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In summary, daily alone time is vital for highly sensitive individuals, especially mothers. Embracing this need not only fosters personal well-being but also enhances the quality of our parenting. By acknowledging our unique requirements, we can create a healthier, more balanced family environment.