As much as I adore my children, there are days when I truly question if I’m fit for this role. The endless debates about misplaced shoes, the urgency of brushing teeth, the limitations on screen time, and the ethics of cheating at Candy Land can feel overwhelming.
Packing nutritious lunches and separating snacks? I’m over it. I dread the multiple trips to the car, laden with children’s belongings, and the relentless schedule of carpool, karate lessons, library visits, and grocery runs—especially when it feels like I’ve already done it nine times this week.
I’m exhausted from pretending I have the answers to questions that stump me. Sorting laundry and finding forgotten loads from the previous week only adds to my frustration. And stepping on one more Lego? No thanks.
Being spit up on, cleaning bottles, changing grimy diapers, or scraping unidentified green goo from under my nails is not how I envisioned my day. The whining, fussing, and crying are starting to wear me thin. I long to say “yes” more often, to cultivate patience, and to eliminate the shouting. I wish I could hear my own thoughts amidst the chaos.
Having battled secondary infertility, I know I should cherish every moment with my kids while they’re still little. I was aware that motherhood wouldn’t always be filled with joy. Yet, some days, it just feels too much.
Most days, I genuinely enjoy being a mother. I love the simple tasks and the adorable, curious little faces looking up at me. But today? Today, I just can’t do it.
What I truly desire is some peace and quiet, a chance to recharge, and perhaps monopolizing the TV remote for a bit, followed by a refreshing nap. I crave a moment to shower without worrying about the myriad ways my crawling infant could get hurt. I want to stand in front of the mirror and reassure the woman looking back at me, “You’re doing your best, and today was just one of those days.” More than anything, I want to believe that.
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In summary, while motherhood is a journey filled with love and joy, it can also be incredibly challenging. On the tough days, it’s essential to recognize that it’s okay to feel overwhelmed and to take a step back for self-care.