Mom guilt. Before I became a mother, I dismissed it as just another cliché. However, once I had children, it transformed into an overwhelming presence that could consume me if I let it.
In my pre-kid life, I experienced guilt occasionally. But post-kids? It seems never-ending. I feel guilty for not spending enough time playing with my children, yet when I do play with them, I end up neglecting household chores. I clean the house, but then I hesitate to let them play for fear of messes. I worry about not taking them outside on beautiful days, and when I do, I fret over bug bites. I read to my oldest more than the younger ones, and I constantly question my parenting style—am I too strict? Not strict enough? I grapple with candy consumption and feel bad when I sneak a treat for myself. I don’t plan daily educational activities, and I sometimes rely on the TV as a babysitter. I even feel guilty for running errands without them, even when they beg to come along. Despite being grateful for the time I have with them, I still find myself feeling overwhelmed by frustration and guilt.
“Just get rid of the guilt,” people say, but the reality is that shedding this guilt is nearly impossible. So instead, I’ve decided to embrace it.
Embracing Guilt as a Sign of Devotion
In my view, if I’m not feeling any guilt at all, one of two things must be true:
- I’ve reached perfection (which I know is unattainable!)
- I’ve stopped caring (and I hope that’s never the case!)
Therefore, I choose to accept my guilt as a sign of my devotion. This acceptance allows me to recognize two important truths:
1. Acknowledging My Imperfections
First, I acknowledge that I am not perfect. I strive to be, or at least I try to present myself that way. But by accepting my imperfections, I can focus on the essential task of loving my children as an imperfect mother. This helps me teach them the value of understanding that perfection is unrealistic, and it shows them how to make amends when mistakes are made.
2. Caring Enough to Feel Guilt
Second, embracing my guilt signifies that I genuinely care. If I didn’t care, I wouldn’t feel guilty about anything. The mere fact that I experience guilt over various situations reveals my desire to do right by my kids. That realization alone brings me a sense of relief.
So, the next time that nagging mommy guilt tries to creep in, I’ll confront it head-on. I’ll acknowledge it, thank it for reminding me of my love for my children, and commit to adjusting one thing I’ve felt guilty about. Then I’ll send it on its way, knowing it will probably return before I even notice.
Additional Resources
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In summary, embracing the guilt of motherhood can lead to growth and understanding, allowing for a more compassionate parenting journey.