I want to take a moment to express my sincerest apologies.
To the wonderful partner who captured my heart during carefree times, to my two precious little ones who light up my days, to my supportive family who tirelessly keeps everything running, and to my friends whom I haven’t treated well for far too long: I’m truly sorry.
I apologize for raising my voice. I apologize for being irritable. I apologize for my moments of frustration. I’m sorry for not being as much fun lately. I apologize for the tears that have flowed too freely. I’m sorry that I’ve struggled to find the silver lining. I’m sorry for the rare moments of laughter.
There are days when the challenges of motherhood weigh heavily: changing countless diapers, sleepless nights filled with worry, and the frustration of a toddler refusing to eat or a baby who won’t stop crying. There are times when answering endless questions feels overwhelming, especially when my head is pounding. In those moments, it’s hard to maintain a sense of humor or perspective.
I don’t wish to make excuses. With my son, Leo, now two, and my daughter, Mia, celebrating her nine-month milestone, I realize I’m no longer the ‘new mom.’ Yet, I’m still a mother of two young children, navigating this chaotic journey without a clear roadmap. I’m continually learning about parenting, often feeling lost along the way.
This version of myself—sleep-deprived, distracted, forgetful, impatient, and occasionally snappy—is not who I envisioned I would become. I long for the days when I was the friend who brought laughter and joy, the one who embraced spontaneity without concern for the fallout. I wish to be the person who laughed freely, who had faith that everything would turn out alright, and who had the energy and creativity to make life vibrant.
Perhaps one day, I will rediscover that version of myself. For now, however, I feel adrift, overwhelmed by fatigue and anxiety. I sometimes yearn for a break, and I still make mistakes when it matters most.
I kindly ask for your patience. Please continue to smile at me and attempt to bring joy back into my life. I might not deserve your kindness right now, but I would be grateful if you’d stick around. I believe that the woman you once knew will return.
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Summary
In this heartfelt message, I apologize to my loved ones for my recent behavior and emotional struggles as a mother of two young children. I reflect on how motherhood has changed me, expressing a desire to reconnect with the joyful and carefree person I used to be. I ask for patience and understanding from my family and friends as I navigate this challenging journey.