I can still feel your warmth pressing against me.
Your fragrance lingers in the air,
Your heartbeat resonates within mine—
Warm, vibrant, alive.
Our roots are intertwined,
Yet the world has been turned upside down.
In the quiet of the night,
My soul calls out for you,
“Jules. Jules. Jules. Please come back.”
I’ve poured countless glasses of red wine, whispered countless prayers, and shed endless tears.
I sought escape, searched for alternatives,
But here I stand.
And amidst the shadows, I’ve discovered a few profound truths.
- Life can shift dramatically in a single, fleeting moment.
- Mourning is born anew but never truly fades.
- When others say it will get easier, they simply don’t understand.
- Unexpected angels arrive to guide you through the darkest times.
- True friends remain steadfast, even when you’re chaotic, irrational, or endlessly repeating yourself.
- Your weakest moments can reveal your greatest strength.
- Darkness is a reality we must face.
- And so is the existence of a higher power.
- Writing can be a lifeline, even if it feels like bleeding your soul onto the page.
- There exists a profound space within you dedicated to grief.
- Anyone who belittles or diminishes you is an abuser, without exception.
- Trust your instincts—if something feels wrong, don’t ignore it.
- Past actions often predict future behaviors; believe what people show you the first time.
- No one will ever know or love me as you did.
- The sunlight feels different when you’re not here.
- Domestic abuse extends beyond physical violence; words can wound deeply.
- It’s possible to cry endlessly for years.
- Our suffering can transform into our purpose.
- Life continues, even when you feel as if it has stopped.
- True peace cannot be found in the world; it only comes from within the divine.
- One can wear a mask adorned with feathers, smiles, and vibrant red lipstick and deceive the world around them.
My beloved sister and best friend, Jules, was taken from me by a tragic act on May 26, 2010. The world was irrevocably altered; the sun seemed to dim, and the weight of the universe felt lighter. Yet, I remain here, carrying the love and memories of you always.
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In summary, the lessons learned from loss are profound and transformative, revealing both the fragility and strength of life.