From the outset of my pregnancy, we were aware that a cesarean delivery was in my future. My first birth had turned into an emergency C-section following a grueling 30-hour labor that left me with minimal dilation and a baby who was stuck. Thus, all subsequent pregnancies would also require cesarean deliveries.
This time, our fourth delivery was scheduled for earlier than my previous births, at 38 weeks, on the advice of my OB and a Maternal Fetal Medicine (MFM) specialist. Earlier in my pregnancy, I had been diagnosed with gestational diabetes. Despite significant dietary changes and becoming reliant on insulin, my blood sugar levels remained elevated. An ultrasound later indicated concerning fluid levels and an enlarged baby.
Despite the challenges of a physically demanding pregnancy, my husband and I felt more ready and optimistic than ever. By the time you reach your fourth child, everything begins to feel routine. We had diapers, formula, and baby gear prepared well in advance. Leading up to the delivery, my “nesting” focused more on ensuring my three older children and my husband were ready rather than setting up a new nursery. I understood that recovering from a C-section wouldn’t be easy, so I made it a priority to prepare my kids for what to expect and stock our kitchen for my husband to take charge of meals.
My husband also prepared in his own way, focusing on the things I might overlook. He enthusiastically ordered clothes and baby supplies, ensuring everything was in place. He understood that my well-being was crucial for the family. In fact, it’s safe to say that he kept numerous delivery drivers busy with his frequent orders.
The surgery was set for the day after my oldest son’s 9th birthday. He thought it sounded exciting, but I was determined to ensure his special day wouldn’t be overshadowed by the arrival of his new sister. I worried, perhaps irrationally, that sharing a birthday proximity would lead to resentment in the future. To celebrate, I organized a surprise themed party inspired by “Stranger Things,” transforming our kitchen into the Upside Down. Though it was a lot of effort, I have no regrets about making that memory with him.
The hardest part of this fourth C-section was undoubtedly the guilt I felt towards my family. I couldn’t shake the maternal instinct that urged me to “GET UP AND TAKE CARE OF YOUR KIDS!” even when I was in pain and exhausted. I also felt similar guilt toward my husband. While he has been incredibly supportive post-birth, I could see that his own needs were being sidelined. He insists he wouldn’t have it any other way, but I still felt a heavy burden of guilt for not being able to contribute as I normally would.
Recovery from a C-section varies widely, typically ranging from two to six weeks before one starts to feel more like themselves, even when the physical pain has lessened. This being my fourth, I braced myself for significant discomfort, recalling the familiar aching and burning of incision pain from past surgeries. To my surprise, though the pain was indeed intense, my recovery felt more manageable than ever.
The easiest part of this fourth C-section experience was how I managed my pain. I’m not trying to gloss over the recovery process; it was painful! My abdomen throbbed and burned, and every sneeze sent waves of fear through me. However, I learned key lessons over the years regarding surgery recovery:
- Take the medicine.
- Walk it out.
- Ask for help.
These seemingly simple strategies took me a decade to fully embrace. The medications I received in the hospital caused constipation, but they allowed me to hold my baby without pain. Accepting that I wasn’t okay and taking the necessary medication was a significant breakthrough for me.
The first walk after a C-section is always challenging, but delaying movement only prolongs recovery. Walking helps alleviate gas pain and constipation too. Asking for help is perhaps the most vital advice I can offer. As a mom, I used to think I could handle everything on my own, but I learned that true support comes from expressing my needs. Even though I’m feeling better now, I still ask my oldest to help with laundry and my mom to assist with items on high shelves.
I’m pleased to say that we’re navigating this recovery period much more smoothly than I anticipated. Of course, there are still moments when my belly’s tenderness makes standing for long stretches or climbing stairs difficult. My husband and children have their moments of exhaustion as well; they are carrying extra responsibilities. However, as we transition to being a family of six, I see each of us adopting new, helpful habits, which fills me with pride.
Although my doctor has advised against having more children (and yes, we are taking that seriously!), we are managing this recovery as a family with strength and unity. This experience has truly been both the easiest and hardest C-section journey I’ve encountered.
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Summary:
In this article, Emma Carter reflects on her fourth C-section, exploring the mixed feelings of ease and difficulty that come with recovery and family dynamics. She shares her experiences with guilt, preparation, pain management, and the invaluable support from her husband and children during this transition to a larger family.