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We’ve all encountered that mom. You know, the one whose home was always immaculate for playdates, especially when ours looked like a small tornado had struck. She was the one who organized Pinterest-worthy birthday celebrations complete with themed cakes, decorations, and delicacies. Her life seemed perfectly orchestrated; she didn’t drop her kids off in leggings, and her messy hair buns somehow looked effortlessly chic.
I was that mom—and I was deeply unhappy.
Why? Because what I perceived as my dramatic and perfectionist inner dialogue was actually a manifestation of high-functioning anxiety.
What is High-Functioning Anxiety?
When someone has high-functioning anxiety, they can manage their daily responsibilities more effectively than others dealing with the same condition. For me, this meant that even as I felt overwhelmed by anxiety internally, I appeared composed on the outside.
I allowed my anxiety to go unchecked for years. While there weren’t many visible signs typically associated with severe anxiety, I preferred it that way. I juggled parenting, work, and even took on leadership roles in organizations like Girl Scouts. But beneath it all, I constantly worried—worried that I wasn’t measuring up or doing enough.
What if I didn’t keep up? What if that meant I had failed?
I was convinced that everyone important in my life would be disappointed, frustrated, or—worse—pity me for not having it all together. I set impossibly high standards for myself, believing that if I could just outpace my flaws and failures, I’d be safe from rejection.
Sounds a bit over the top, doesn’t it? It truly was. One day, I found myself late to pick up my child from Pre-K, wearing lounge clothes and with my hair in a messy bun. I nearly drove home out of sheer embarrassment. Thankfully, my daughter was the line leader that day, allowing us to leave quickly. But I spent the entire drive home in tears, convinced that the other moms thought I was lazy and incompetent.
This illustrates how high-functioning anxiety can manifest. My untreated anxiety blurred the lines between rationality and irrational thoughts. There’s a distinct difference between striving for perfection and battling a mental health issue. One seeks to achieve a personal ideal, while the other feels an intense pressure that the world might collapse if she doesn’t succeed.
People grappling with high-functioning mental illnesses face a unique challenge. My ability to function at a high level made it easy for me to keep up appearances. For example, I vividly remember the night before “crazy hair day” at school, a memory that has lingered with me for almost three years.
As my youngest daughter was excited about her cupcake buns, my older daughter wanted something a bit more sophisticated. We watched countless tutorials and selected the perfect cupcake wrappers. I even compromised on makeup, opting for a light touch of blush and sparkly gloss.
Yet, despite our efforts, I lay awake, consumed with worry. What if her hairstyle fell apart during the day? What if another child had a better version of the same hairdo? What if my daughter ended up feeling embarrassed because it didn’t meet her expectations? What if she realized I wasn’t good enough?
Does any of this resonate with you? When struggling with an untreated mental illness, it can be daunting to vocalize such thoughts, fearing judgment.
Logically, you recognize these thoughts are irrational, but your mind doesn’t sync with your nerves—everything feels off. Perhaps if I had shared my bottled-up emotions with someone earlier, I might have recognized how unhealthy my mindset was. According to the Office On Women’s Health, nearly 1 in 5 adults in the U.S. suffers from an anxiety disorder, with women being twice as likely to experience these conditions.
Once I began treatment for my Generalized Anxiety Disorder, I finally found a healthier balance, but not without raising eyebrows. People around me were concerned—“What’s wrong?” they asked—because things no longer felt overwhelming.
The most helpful question anyone can ask is, “How can we help?” If you or someone you know exhibits perfectionist traits, it’s always beneficial to talk about it. You don’t need to stage an intervention; sometimes, a simple inquiry like “How are you really doing?” can open the door to meaningful conversations about mental health.
This is my way of contributing to the narrative shift. By sharing my experiences, I hope to show others they’re not alone and encourage them to seek help.
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In summary, my journey through high-functioning anxiety has taught me the importance of recognizing the unseen struggles behind the facade of perfection. By sharing my story, I hope to encourage open conversations about mental health, allowing others to find solace and support in their experiences.