I’m in My 30s and Finally Ready to Embrace My Truth

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Hey there, friends! I’m diving right in because I can no longer keep this to myself—the burden has just become too heavy. For over two decades, I’ve been holding on to a significant secret that only a handful of people know. So, here it goes: my name is Sarah Mitchell, and I identify as bisexual.

Wow, that felt amazing to say! Yes, I, Sarah Mitchell, am attracted to both men and women. But honestly, it goes beyond just those two—I’ve always believed that love can transcend gender. For as long as I can remember, I’ve identified as someone who embraces romantic connections regardless of who they are with. Bisexuality feels like the best label for me.

This is the first time I’m openly discussing my bisexuality, so consider this my official coming-out moment. Congratulations! You’re now part of my immediate support network, and I appreciate you being here because I have a lot to share.

My Journey of Self-Discovery

My crushes on girls began back in middle school, but it wasn’t until I was dared to kiss one of my best friends in high school that I realized what I was feeling was true attraction. I was around 16, and she was one of the most popular girls in our class. That kiss? Absolutely magical. I awkwardly pulled away, trying to convince myself it meant nothing—but deep down, I knew it was significant.

Unfortunately, the moment was spoiled by some jerk in class who decided to share details about our kiss, leading to a wave of gossip and laughter. I remember feeling humiliated and running out in tears, even though my English teacher made him apologize. It would have been better if no one had ever mentioned it again.

As time went on, my little brother started teasing me for dressing in a way that he thought looked “stereotypically lesbian.” So, I changed my style to fit in better. At night, though, I felt free to be myself. I would stay up late, locked in my room, watching films featuring queer women, like “But I’m a Cheerleader” and “Gia,” which only fueled my feelings.

College and Complications

I thought college would be my chance to explore my sexuality. I imagined a fun-loving best friend and nights out at gay clubs. While I was drawn to guys, girls felt like a hidden treasure I was too scared to explore. Three months into my freshman year, I unexpectedly fell for the guy who would become my first husband. This complicated things because, despite being in a long-term relationship, I was still finding myself drawn to women.

This created confusion for my boyfriend, especially when my drunken escapades with women began to escalate. In a strange way, he joined in on the fun, even if he didn’t fully understand my impulses. He supported me during this chaotic time of self-discovery.

Facing Challenges

However, my journey of authenticity came at a price. After a transformative summer where I embraced my appearance, I finally decided to come out to my family. But my mom barged in during that conversation, unleashing hurtful comments and causing me to feel like an outsider in my own home. That day marked a turning point as I moved in with my dad and buried my bisexuality, ultimately marrying my college sweetheart.

Fast forward to four years later, when my marriage ended. While heartbreak is tough, it also freed me to explore my identity. I wish I could say I confidently jumped into the dating scene, but fear held me back when women I was interested in wanted to meet face-to-face.

Finding Acceptance

Eventually, I married a wonderful man named Jake, who is now my partner in life. Together, we have two adorable kids and I also stepmom to his daughter. I thought I’d have to hide my true self again, but when a younger family member began questioning their identity, it inspired me to be honest with Jake.

After open discussions, I found that Jake not only accepted my bisexuality but celebrated it with me. Now, I can openly admire celebrities like Lizzo and Scarlett Johansson without fear.

Embracing My True Self

So here I am, Sarah Mitchell, an out and proud bisexual woman. If you’re reading this and still finding your footing in your own identity, know that I’ve been there. Owning who you are can be incredibly challenging, especially in a world that often tells you to hide. But after facing my own mental health battles, I’ve decided I won’t spend another moment pretending to be someone I’m not. I’m ready to embrace my true self, and I believe it’s absolutely wonderful.

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Conclusion

In summary, coming out is a journey filled with challenges and triumphs. It’s about embracing who you are and finding the courage to live authentically, no matter the obstacles.