I just made my way through the house, letting out a sigh (or maybe a curse) at least half a dozen times. My partner, Rachel, is off at her full-time job, and my three kids are at school. As I navigate this chaotic space, I’m trying to find my way to my desk for a day filled with work at home. Balancing my writing, advocacy efforts, and various side projects feels like a Herculean task. The house may be empty, but my responsibilities are anything but.
I sighed as I faced the constant reminders of my never-ending to-do list. Unfortunately, we don’t have family nearby to step in and help when things get tight. My family is dysfunctional, and Rachel’s is out of state with aging parents. While we have friends, they too are juggling jobs and kids. I can’t help but envy those who have grandparents or siblings who can lighten the daily load of parenting.
I sighed again when I spotted the mountain of school papers my oldest, Mia, brought home, still untouched. I stepped around laundry baskets: one overflowing with clean clothes waiting to be folded, and the other a collection of dirty garments and random items that somehow migrated from upstairs to the kitchen. Apparently, my kitchen is the new home for stray socks and toys.
I glanced at the endless to-do lists, a sink full of dirty dishes, bills stacked high, bathrooms that need scrubbing, and appointments looming ahead. I muttered at the frozen chicken I forgot to thaw for dinner, knowing my kids will likely complain about whatever I manage to cook. Fingers crossed they’ll actually eat it.
The toys are scattered everywhere, and dress-up items litter the floor like breadcrumbs leading me in circles. As I pick up the mess, I realize I’m just going in loops, feeling trapped in an endless cycle. I’m exhausted and overwhelmed, constantly chasing my tail without ever catching a break.
Sometimes, Rachel and I feel like we’re just roommates, snapping at each other and taking out our frustrations. She can get snippy, and I might get cranky. We blame the kids, our work schedules, and the lack of time we have for each other. I hear tales of couples who manage to carve out date nights every week or at least once a month. How do they pull that off? Who has the budget for a babysitter? The last time Rachel and I enjoyed a night out was ages ago; I can’t even recall what we did.
Hiring a babysitter for our three kids can be pricey, so we sometimes rely on friends for help, swapping childcare duties. We attempt to connect on weekends, but often, our plans for movie nights get swapped for catching up on work, tackling bills, or crossing off items from our never-ending lists. Sorting through bins of summer clothes for the kids isn’t exactly romantic, but it has to be done, even if it eats into our precious time together.
Juggling the demands of three energetic kids, a full-time job, and nurturing a marriage and friendships is no small feat. At times, I feel like I’m failing at everything, like I’m not measuring up. It’s disheartening.
When you never get a break, everything feels like too much. I could take some time off, leave responsibilities behind for a day or two, perhaps schedule a massage or enjoy a few hours of peace while the kids are at school. But that would only add to my stress. I can’t afford a massage, and I’m already on edge due to all the unfinished tasks. The idea of lounging around just feels unproductive.
This is just who I am. I prefer to keep busy and manage my life’s responsibilities. I can’t help but feel jealous of those with a more manageable parent-to-child ratio, or those who have family nearby to take their kids for the day. I long for a night out or a weekend away with friends, without the nagging guilt of leaving Rachel with three needy children.
I remind myself that this phase won’t last forever. While I won’t magically gain family support, my kids will grow up and require less of my attention. The challenges of balancing a busy life with three kids will always be there, but eventually, I’ll reclaim some of my time. I’ll get those breaks, or at least feel less overwhelmed as I tackle responsibilities without constant interruptions. I’ll take whatever reprieve I can get because honestly, I desperately need it.
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In summary, life can feel overwhelming when you never get a break, especially while managing the demands of parenthood, work, and relationships. However, it’s important to remember that this stage is temporary; with time, as kids grow older, there will be opportunities for more personal space and relief from the constant cycle of responsibilities.