As I strolled through the grocery store with my 7-week-old son, my third child, I found myself in a familiar yet overwhelming place. I should have been a seasoned pro at this parenting thing, but instead, I was draped in yoga pants and a messy bun, fatigue clinging to me like a second skin. A whirlwind of nostalgia and love swirled within me. I missed the simplicity of managing just two children, yet I was undeniably smitten with this new addition to our family.
Society often suggests that it’s taboo to express such feelings. I felt the weight of the world pressing down on me as the “resting mom face” I wore could have sent anyone running. Strangers in the store were far more interested in peeking at my little one than noticing my struggle. They would gush about how adorable he was, asking if he was sleeping well and reminding me to cherish these fleeting moments.
Occasionally, someone would muster the courage to inquire about my well-being—the person who had just given birth, the one responsible for the delightful bundle of joy. Typically, I would respond with a cheerful “fine” because that’s what was expected of me.
On that particular afternoon, however, I encountered a woman named Linda, with salt-and-pepper curls and glasses, who approached me while I navigated the frozen food aisle. She wanted to see my baby, and I was prepared to play my part. I was ready to showcase my son and proclaim that everything was fabulous because surely, as a mother of three, I should have it all figured out, right? But the truth was I was struggling.
When Linda asked how I was doing, I felt a rush of honesty. I gripped my cart tightly and replied, “Oh, fine. He’s my third, so you know…” I followed the script I had rehearsed, avoiding the truth that motherhood wasn’t getting any easier, despite my experience.
Linda stopped me, looking directly into my eyes. “How are you really?” she asked. Her sincerity caught me off guard. I confessed, “He’s 7 weeks old, and it still hurts to sit down.” I was surprised at my own vulnerability, speaking about my discomfort in the ice cream section. But it felt right.
“He never sleeps. Everyone told me it would be easy, but he’s harder than my first two combined at night.” I glanced around, hoping she wouldn’t bolt, but she stayed put.
“So, I guess I’m not fine, but everyone thinks I am. They expect me to be okay just because I’ve done this before.”
Her response was straightforward: “Or maybe it’s because you keep telling them you’re fine. It’s okay to not be okay. Asking for help is a strength, not a weakness.”
Admitting that asking for help was tough for me felt like a confession. I didn’t want anyone to see my struggle.
“Fine, don’t ask for help. Keep suffering; that’s an option,” Linda said, her honesty refreshing. She didn’t sugarcoat it or offer platitudes about how I would eventually manage. Instead, she laid bare the choices before me, and that realness was what I needed.
After our chat, I grabbed both rocky road and Reese’s Cup ice cream, feeling lighter. Linda’s words reminded me that it was perfectly acceptable to not be fine, that I wasn’t alone in my feelings.
Since that day, I have made it my mission to encourage other mothers to be gentle with themselves during challenging times. Becoming a parent, regardless of the number of children, is a monumental adjustment. Lowering our expectations and seeking help when needed is vital for our well-being.
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In summary, being a mother is a significant life change, and it’s essential to be kind to ourselves. We don’t have to pretend everything is fine, and seeking help is not only acceptable but necessary.