Dear Ethan,
I remember the anticipation that came with the end of summer, eagerly awaiting the start of the school year and the return to our familiar routine. As a working mom, I often felt guilty about the afternoons I missed spending with you at the pool. I found myself wishing away those long summer days, believing that if you were in school like everyone else, I was giving you what you needed.
Sometimes, I worry that I rushed through your childhood too quickly, and now I find myself wishing to freeze time and hold onto these moments a little longer.
Think back to your first day of kindergarten. I can still picture the tears streaming down my face as you boarded that yellow bus, stepping into a new world beyond our neighborhood. Your first soccer game was another emotional milestone—like a passing of the torch. Even now, when the national anthem plays at your games, I feel a lump in my throat.
Time is slipping away, and the end is glaringly near. There are only two more first-day-of-school photos left to capture. Soon, you’ll have your driver’s license, and your soccer and lacrosse games will be numbered.
You might not realize this, but social media is filled with parents sharing heartfelt “lasts” as their kids approach graduation. Each post brings tears to my eyes. I know I’ll be emotional when your senior year rolls around, but for now, we have a moment to breathe before the whirlwind begins—your junior year.
As you embark on this pivotal year, I have a few important thoughts for you to reflect on during these final weeks of summer:
- This Year Matters: There are no do-overs. Your efforts in school, sports, and SAT preparation will shape your future. As college coaches start making decisions, put forth your best effort. This is your time to shine.
- Lead by Example: Younger kids look up to you now that you’re an upperclassman. Your friends admire you, and your six little cousins see you as a role model. Embrace this opportunity to be kind, honest, and humble.
- Prioritize Family: I know we might seem annoying at times, but we love you deeply. Keep the lines of communication open with Dad and me; we’re here to support you. Don’t forget your grandparents—they cherish the moments you include them in your life. And be kind to your sister; she’ll always be there for you.
- Make Wise Choices: You may feel unstoppable, but one poor decision can have lasting consequences. Never drink and drive, and don’t get in a car with someone who has. Always call me if you need a ride. And if you become sexually active, remember that it’s your responsibility to stay safe.
- Think About Your Future: It might seem far off, but the time to consider a job is quickly approaching. Reflect on what you enjoy and how you can turn that passion into a career. Use your talents to make a positive impact in the world.
- Enjoy the Ride: Soak in this second-to-last year of high school. The pressure is building, but it’s not overwhelming yet. Attend football games, hang out with friends, and indulge in pizza. The realities of adulthood will be here before you know it.
As you step into your junior year, I hope I’ve provided you with a strong foundation for the future. You’re on the brink of adulthood, and it’s both exciting and bittersweet.
With all my love,
Mom