Dear Little One,
Today, we shared the delightful news of your existence. With a heartwarming photo of your dad, me, and your cheerful older brother, we let the world in on our little secret—a secret the size of a blueberry. Yes, we are expecting! Our second miracle is on the way.
Some friends expressed their concern, calling it “too soon.” They worry because, at this delicate stage of your development, everything can feel uncertain. Statistically, the odds can seem daunting. I could be celebrating your blossoming spirit today and facing grief tomorrow. The reality of miscarriage is a weighty thought that lingers.
For weeks, I let this fear seep into my heart, allowing it to drown out the joy of this precious pregnancy. I let that anxiety extinguish the excitement I felt for you, leading to sleepless nights spent anxiously awaiting the worst. Nausea gripped me, but I hesitated to see it as a sign of hope. I experienced food aversions, yet convinced myself it was merely a figment of my imagination.
I feared embracing your presence, terrified of the potential loss.
Surrounded by stories of too many losses—friends and family who have navigated the highs of pregnancy and the depths of sorrow—it seemed safer to shield myself from hope than risk the heartbreak.
The fear enveloped me. I stopped discussing names, avoided nursery themes, and ceased dreaming about how your big brother would adapt to his new role. I let the panic overshadow the joy you brought into my life.
Then, on a Friday, you revealed your heartbeat. Just a few rhythmic thumps and I was completely smitten. Yes, it’s early and yes, the fear is real, but it no longer matters. You are here, and I am ready to celebrate each moment of your existence.
Don’t mind our friends who worry about the timing; they care for both me and you. The truth is, I am weary of this perpetual state of anxiety. All that worry was causing you to fade from my dreams, my joy, and my aspirations—a tragedy in its own right.
So today, I choose to rejoice in your life—not just today but every day after. I want to honor the miracle that you are for as long as your heart continues to beat. Your presence is a gift longed for and cherished.
And I am determined to embrace this gift wholeheartedly.
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Summary
This heartfelt letter explores the complex emotions surrounding pregnancy and the fear of miscarriage. The author reflects on the initial anxiety overshadowing their joy, ultimately choosing to embrace the miracle of new life and celebrate each moment of the pregnancy journey.