To My Child: I Understand You Even When Others Don’t

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Hey there, my little one,

I won’t lie; every morning when you head off to school, there’s a heaviness in my heart. I strive to equip you for success, yet I often find myself consumed by worry. Life can be tough, and I know that kids, and sometimes even adults, can be incredibly unkind. I recognize that you’re going through a phase where you might feel misunderstood by those around you.

But here’s the truth, my dear: I get you.

As strange as it may sound (and yes, I know I might sound a bit off), there are moments when I wish I could turn back time and hold you as a baby for just one more day. It’s not because I desire a different version of you; you are beyond what I ever imagined. It’s simply that, back then, I could shield you from the harsh realities of the world. I didn’t have to worry about someone breaking your spirit or causing you pain. I could comfort you with a silly toy or wrap you in my arms, assuring you that everything would be okay.

If I could relive just one more day of your infancy, I would cherish every moment. I’d hold you tight, gaze into your eyes, and feel the warmth of keeping you safe. I wouldn’t mind your cries because I could be there to understand your needs. I’d rock you to sleep, watching your peaceful face as you drifted off into dreams. You wouldn’t seek validation from others; your happiness would be enough for me and your dad. If you needed anything, I’d be right there.

Reflecting on this, I realize it does sound a bit selfish. It would bring me comfort to protect you, a natural instinct of motherhood. However, I understand that this isn’t what’s best for you. I need to allow you to navigate life independently, face challenges, and discover your own path. You will encounter rejection, fear, and disappointment, but those experiences will help you appreciate the joyful moments to come. You have to embrace life and come to terms with the fact that not everyone will understand you.

You may have unique interests and a distinctive style that sets you apart. I know that you will face bullies and groups who don’t recognize how special you are, but remember, you possess an inner strength that often astounds me. You inspire me, and I have no doubt that you will take on the world with your uniqueness. Don’t ever feel the need to conform just to fit in. Always remember that you’re never alone. If things ever get overwhelming, just reach out to me, and I’ll be there to support you.

I’ll confess, I’ll probably always have some level of worry. It’s difficult for me to accept that I can’t follow you everywhere with a safety net. I can’t wrap you in bubble wrap to prevent any harm. But on those tough days, know that I will always be here for you—a safe haven whenever you need it. No matter what life throws your way, even if you find yourself hating me as a teenager or charting your own course as an adult, I’ll remain your unwavering support. Just be yourself; no one else can do that better than you.

I understand you.

And I’m incredibly grateful to have you in my life.

With all my love,
Mom