If only I could create a routine and adhere to it without fail. If I could just rise early, if I could get enough rest, everything would fall into place. If I could get this all sorted, I would sleep when it’s time and be alert during work hours. Right?
If I could make healthier food choices, I wouldn’t feel bloated or overly full. With nutritious meals readily available, I wouldn’t be tempted to grab fast food or sugary drinks. I could enjoy organic, locally sourced meals that are wholesome and satisfying, eliminating the need for quick fixes that compromise my health.
If I could arrive at work punctually and focus without distractions, I wouldn’t feel like I’m rushing out the door, leaving projects unfinished and my colleagues in the lurch. On weekends and holidays, I could enjoy a genuine break, a true respite from the daily grind.
If I could just tidy up my home, everything would be in order—my clothes would be neatly stored, I would keep track of my bills, and I wouldn’t discover my cat munching on the butter or my kittens getting into the recycling.
If I could carve out time for exercise, rising early to stretch or practice yoga, I would feel more relaxed and limber. I would enjoy better health, free from the persistent headaches and nighttime teeth grinding that plague me.
If I could just remember to take my vitamins, it wouldn’t be an issue if I didn’t drink enough milk or consume my vegetables—though I genuinely want to eat fresh fruits and veggies, whole grains, and delightful meals like sushi and grilled chicken. I crave these foods, but I lack the time to prepare them. If it were more convenient, I would undoubtedly eat better. But is that just circular thinking?
Time slips away like sand through fingers. I am overwhelmed.
If I could simply maintain good posture, I’d avoid becoming an achy old woman. If I could stop chewing on the skin around my nails. If I could just stretch out these knots in my back.
If I had sufficient time to style my hair, I’d look more polished. If I remembered to apply lotion at night, my hands would feel softer. If I whitened my teeth and flossed regularly, my smile would shine brighter. If I wore red lipstick, I could feel more attractive—if only I could remember to apply it. Instead, my expensive lipstick lies buried at the bottom of my purse alongside crumpled receipts, loose change, and forgotten business cards.
Living this chaotic life feels impossible. How can I carve out a spiritual niche amidst the turmoil? Which responsibilities can I let slide? Arriving on time? Looking good for my spouse? Prioritizing my health? Keeping everyone else on track?
If I could perfect my schedule, I’d have time to tend to my houseplants, bake bread, work on my writing, and have meaningful moments with my husband, showing him my love even when exhaustion weighs heavily on me. I could aim to stay healthy while managing the unique needs of my children without adopting a martyr complex. I want to express my feelings freely rather than suffer in silence.
I’m fatigued and yearning for balance. Things are falling through the cracks; my house is cluttered, I haven’t made any homemade jam, and I’ve gained 15 pounds since returning to work. My houseplants are withering, and I keep apologizing for my shortcomings. While many may not care about these details, some certainly do. Who is in control here? Is it me?
What if it’s all a mental construct? What if it isn’t? What’s truly achievable? If my goal is unity—with my spouse, my body, my spirit, and my God—can I find balance amid the chaos? Is there a schedule that can encompass all my needs? If not, which of these “must-dos” can I release?
This article was originally published on Oct. 22, 2015.
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Summary
The struggle to maintain balance in life as a woman navigating responsibilities can feel overwhelming. The desire for a perfect routine, healthy habits, and personal well-being often clashes with the chaos of daily life. By examining what can be prioritized and what can be let go, one can find a path toward achieving harmony in both personal and family life.