That blasted teddy bear almost derailed my morning. Positioned right at the entrance of Old Navy, it displayed its blue scarf with pride, enticing kids to cuddle with it. It was nearly the same size as my two-year-old son, so of course, he insisted we take it home.
“Honey, we’re not buying a teddy bear today,” I replied weakly to his relentless pleas. “We’re just here for your new mittens.”
But my son was persistent, as all toddlers tend to be, and frankly, I was exhausted. Not just physically drained, but emotionally worn out. It was the fall of 2008, and like many families, we were grappling with financial pressures and job uncertainties. The daily strain had left me fatigued—soul-tired and heartbroken.
Having recently endured my third miscarriage in six months, I found myself filled with anger. I was frustrated with my plight, upset with my body, and questioning the universe. Everything seemed so difficult, and I was at my breaking point.
So, I caved.
“Alright, fine,” I relented, thinking I would let him carry the bear around while I hunted for mittens, then we could return it before leaving. With careful negotiation in my mind, I figured I could stave off a tantrum until we were close to the exit.
My son eagerly grabbed a bear, and we headed toward the back of the store. I quickly found a pair of red fleece mittens that fit perfectly, along with a matching hat. As we approached the checkout counter, my son gleefully dragged that oversized white teddy bear behind him.
Feeling proud of our efficient shopping trip, I placed the mittens and hat on the counter and gently took the bear from my son’s hands, intending to return it. However, as I lifted it, I noticed its bottom was now streaked with dirt.
With a deep sigh, I asked the cashier how much it would cost.
“Twenty dollars,” she replied.
Another groan escaped me. I didn’t want to spend twenty bucks, nor did I want my son to think he could have everything he desired.
“Okay,” I sighed, conceding. “I suppose we’ll buy it too.”
The cashier kindly offered that I didn’t need to purchase the bear, but I insisted. If you dirty it, you buy it. Just as I was fumbling for my wallet while trying to keep my son from making more impulsive selections, a voice from behind me piped up.
“That’s what you get,” it said, dripping with condescension.
I turned to see a woman behind me, who continued to criticize my parenting choices. Her voice was relentless, offering unsolicited advice on how I should have handled the situation better.
Fury surged through me. I felt an overwhelming urge to yell or even hit her, but instead, I took a deep breath and faced this judgmental stranger.
“Are you a mother?” I asked, trying to keep my tone steady.
“Yes, I am,” she replied smugly.
“Then perhaps you understand how challenging this is,” I managed to say, my voice barely above a whisper.
“I would never let my kids drag a teddy bear around,” she shot back. “You need to set limits.”
What had I done to deserve such harsh judgment? Wasn’t I just trying to buy a pair of mittens? Why did I have to endure such criticism on top of everything else—miscarriages, infertility struggles, and financial worries?
I felt utterly defeated.
“Thank you,” I said softly, relinquishing the anger that threatened to overwhelm me. “I appreciate your advice.”
Turning back to the cashier, I handed over my credit card. After signing the receipt, I took my purchases and grasped my son’s hand as he clutched the now-dirtied teddy bear, and we shuffled out of the store.
More fatigued and heartbroken than ever, I tried to hurry my son to the car for a much-needed emotional release, but toddlers have their own pace. Just as we exited, a red sedan pulled up, and the passenger window rolled down.
“Excuse me,” said a kindly man in his early 40s. I braced myself for yet another confrontation. “I just wanted to say that I witnessed what happened in the store. You handled that beautifully. I’m inspired by how you managed the situation. Thank you for that.”
And just like that, he drove away. I stood there for a moment, astonished by the unexpected kindness from a stranger. As I sat in the car, a few tears rolled down my cheeks, but I couldn’t help but smile. Everything would be okay.
In that moment, I realized I needn’t ponder the universe’s cruelty any longer. On that chilly fall day, kindness showed up in the form of a round-faced man in a red sedan.
This story is an excerpt from my book, Open Boxes: The Gifts of Living a Full and Connected Life, which captures the paradoxes of parenting and the richness of our experiences.
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Summary: In a moment of frustration at the store, a mother faces judgment from a stranger while managing her toddler’s desires amidst personal struggles. Despite her exhaustion and heartbreak, she receives unexpected praise from another stranger, reminding her of the kindness that exists in the world.